Right now she's all alone. But that won't last

See that girl?
Yeah,she’s the one who stuck up for you,
The one who stayed up
Until midnight just to talk to you
She’s the one whose heart
...Flutters when she gets a call or text from you
She’s the one who fought for you
The one that missed and loved you
But by the time you realize
That she’s the girl you want..
She’ll already be with
The guy who figured it out.

Rino Sandaran.!!!!

This gorgeous lady here.! I have no words to describe her.. Yes, I know all of you may think that wtf is wrong with me. I had arguments with her but I still talk about her. Well she was the first person who taught me the meaning of ying and yang. We have that quality and that's what makes us best friends till today. I love her. Anyone can say anything but this is the truth. We have had hiccups in our friendship yes, but that didnt and shall not bring us down. She will always be a part of my past,present and future. :)

I LOVE YOU RINO SANDARAN.!!

Valentines

Happy Valentines Day to all couples out there and yes us SINGLE people as well.. It's my 18th valentines and I am still single. The feeling outside is like fuck, but come to think of it, not many of us are able to be single on valentines, and I am pulling it off pretty good.! So what I have to do tomorrow is, to watch every couple passing by and feel good about the fact that I am not in that mess.. :)

Day 4: My Sibling( Cousin )

Owh this is my so super duper gorgeous cousin that I have too much to talk about and too little space and time to blog about. She's a sister and a best friend. Like the ultimate.! I LOVE her so damn much for who she is to me. HERSELF. I wasnt really close to her initially but now we've just grown closer than ever and I'll never stop thanking god for giving me her as my lil sister. :))

Love her so damn freaking much and yes I miss her as much.!

Day 3 : My Parents

Yes, these 2 people on the picture are my one and only set of parents that until today I cant thank God enough for. They have always been there and will always be there for me that I know for sure. I love them very much and I always will. I know everyone would almost have the same thing to say about their parents. That's normal. But what I have to say about my parents is that they have always loved and cared for me like I am a little baby to them and also been a friend when I needed them to be one. They always had something positive to feed me with and yes of course there are times when I really get annoyed with some of the things they do for me, But what can I say. Parents will be parents and kids will be kids. :)

If HE up there gave me a wish, I would use that wish to ask HIM to keep my parents immortal and young as ever. That way, they can always stay with me and be there whenever I need a shoulder , cash(lol), love, and someone to mend my broken heart.

Love you Ma and Pa. :))

Day 2: My Crush

Day 2 would be about my Crush. Not exactly sure if it's safe to mention names in here.. So I'll just give this Mr a name and I shall name him Mr. X.. ;)

Well this Mr.X, he's pretty interesting. He was pretty honest and frank about himself from the very beginning which is why I think he has been made my crush. OK this is pure crapping. Mr.X is super hot and good looking to me. That is to my eyes, I don't know what others have to say or think of how he looks. He is one understanding soul that tries all his level best not to offend anyone but ends up annoying everyone. Ok maybe just me. I don't know. :|

I have too much to say about Mr.X that if I blurt too much, nobody would ever need to take a second thought about whom he is, So I'll just leave this post short and keep you people wondering and giving your mind some exercise. You people should seriously thank me. ;))

DAY 1: My Best Friend. :)

According to my supposed to be scheduled blog plan, the first day would be about my best friend. Do I need to put words together to explain the kind of person my BestFriend is? YES. Cause she is:

1) 1 Heck of a Best Friend.
2) The sister from another mother.
3) The one that comes up with stupid advices with really really good meanings to it.
4) The one who is younger but wiser than me.
5) The one who keeps me smiling even when there's a storm going on within me.
6) Only she can keep me off doing something stupid to myself.
7) Only she understands the smile I give, of whether or not it's fake.
8) Only she knows exactly why I did something even without me needing to explain to her.
9) Only she gets everything I say.
10) The only person that can be my best friend and still love me.

11) The only one that has just too much in common with me.

12) The only one whose family I am really close to and vice versa. :)
13) NEVANIA NURESHA JOHNSON.!

LOVE YOU MY ONE AND ONLY SLUT.!

No Idea What This Is. =|

Day 1 — Your best friend
Day 2 — Your crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 —Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

Don't exactly know what this is, but I think I am gonna use this as my guide for the month to blog. :))

14th February

Holidays are coming to an end and February is already here. 1 month has rushed pass us. Everyone seems so excited about VALENTINES DAY.! Everybody is talking about how they're going to spend their 14th of Feb with their loved one. I on the other hand here, :( , can only sit and watch them exchange flowers and feel good about myself? This is how I can see my 18th year's Valentines being celebrated. ALONE AGAIN.! Maybe the perfect one is somewhere out there. All I need to do is gather patience and wait for the right one. The right one that'll take away all my pain, give me the love I yearn for and show me that boys can be sweet. Just maybe.

It's one week at home.!

ONE WEEK of holidays and I have 3 more days before I can get back to college.! I fucking miss my college mates and everything we do. The morning, afternoon, everytime STARBUCKS, the 10minutes break to get Vaenu's sandwitches, the noise in class, the pre-u centre, our malaysian studies sessions and our so called group studies. I miss everything. Owh and how can I ever forget our lunch time.! That's like the best part of college. We and our really big group... Damn I really am missing college. Just to keep us a little busy, lecturers had to stuff us with plenty of assignments. :( that's the only thing I hate right now and will always hate.!

It's a monday morning

It's a monday morning. Everyone is supposed to be having their morning blues. BUT, I just cant shut up in the morning. I get too hyper god knows why... :| Owh and I got up so early for college... And turns out to be they switched the timetables and my class only starts at 10... And it ends at 6??!!!!!
can you imagine?? I am gonna be dead by the time I get home.!!! :( And then when the heck am I gonna study?? Urghh NOW I HATE COLLEGE.!!!!! :'(

A reason to post.

Yes. Throw anything at me all you want. It's been such long time since I got in here.. I kinda got lost for a moment not knowing where to click what. Stupid me. =.='' Anyways New Year is now and I'm celebrating my 18th year already. Gosh imagine that. 18 years in this world and still trying to find out the reason I have been given a place here on Mother Earth. Too many issues have been going on in my life that is not to be discussed public... But some that is fine to be spoken about is COLLEGE.!!! Yes Yes Yes... Say all you want. I am in college now. And having a really good time in it. I love my new friends very much , the enviroment very much, the way of learning... And the activites... I know as I was going to step into college, i was talking about every ways of saving money. Only when I got into college I realized that saving up cash, it's not that easy especially when starbucks and bakers cottage is in mind all day long. With friends who has an obsession towards Starbucks, saving becomes almost impossible.... Haha..

The current most upsetting thing is that, since my class(J1S1) is a little bigger than it should be, the management is planning to split my class up to 2 groups and my classmates and I have just started bonding. Breaking us apart would only cause us to not to be able to have lunch together and laugh our asses off during classes for stupid jokes.

Speaking of lunch group, it's like a committee all by itself. Aparna, Ariff, Erfan, Mugilan, Chandpreet, Vaenu, Kelly, Thiba, Darshini, Amirul, and ME.! :D Owh and yes, our group will expand, just not yet.. .:D

Haha well that's about college right now.. I am sure I'll be updating more on college and myself real soon. I apologize for being really lazy all this while aite..

Whoa dude.!

Wow your so full of yourself. =) Good for you. ~claps hands~ Well it's a blog and it's public, you take it offensively, not my problem. Just like that, it's Facebook and it's fucking public, Too bad if you think everything is about you. =) I've got things to do for people who actually appreciates me... =) I love my friends very much because they never expected anything from me and took me with an open heart. Accepted me for who I am. I don't need cheats, liars, assholes, betrayers, bitches, sluts, and you can sum up as my friends.! I love everyone around me already and I have enough already. List is full. =)

Ps: I love you.!

Here's what I want to say.!

Ps: I love you.!

Perfect Nightmare.!

You were in my dream for 2 continuous days. You pushed me away on the first dream and pulled me back to you on the 2nd. Are you trying to tell me something? I want to know what my dreams exactly mean.! I miss this. I miss it all. I know you know that my wait never stops.

Was recalling those days when it was just a call away before I can meet you. You came to the stadium to meet me, to Asoka to have lunch, followed me to the park to take a stroll, went to a different shop waiting for me, took me out for breakfast, called me at night to teach me about coffee, stayed with me at the library, walked around town shopping, following you to meet a friend, going out for movies, having a cup of chocolate drink with toast and scolding me when I cry. I miss that person I used to own.!

I forgive you.!

As I stated in my facebook status, It takes a true human to forgive someone. You may not be able to forget whatever happened but there is a noble heart inside all of us that is willing to forgive people for what they've done. We're regular human beings. Mistakes are common and learning from them is what makes them a better person. People making mistakes and then regretting is common. Normal in life. If we were all Gods then there's an exception cause Gods certainly don't make mistakes. Nobody is able to point out someone who's never made mistakes. It's nature. Forgiving one, is what makes you noble and outstanding. I want to be looked upon as someone noble and outstanding. I forgive mistakes you made in the past.

You hurt me, you said words that pierced, you spoke too much about me, you screamed at me, you did all you promised not to do, you moved away. It was all mistakes you made. I forgive you. I made mistakes as well, I am aware of it. But I ain't expecting you to forgive me. I don't want your forgiveness filled with lies. I don't want fake forgiveness.. You can keep it to yourself. I don't need a give and take situation here. I am fine on my own. I've managed 3 months without you. I can go on. You have thought me that I can stand on my own without you. It is not easy. I promise. I die at the end of every night. I drop down tearing. But when I wake up next morning, I wake up with a positive hope towards everything including you. I wake up hoping that you will smile today, if not because of me, because of her. Because of the ones around you. I forgive you for all you've done. I forgive.! =)

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Bored..!!!!!!

Trials.!

It's Tuesday today and I've got trials on Thursday..Damn right.! Life is so bloody miserable. I am not happy about it at all.. :(

I hate you Trials.!!

Appa Is Coming Home.!

Hours away

from spending time

with appa. :)

My Hero, The One Man I Can Truly Trust.

I haven't met my dad physically in almost 2 years now and it's just another 2 days before I get to meet him again and be his little baby. I miss my appa very very very much. He is my best friend and company at home. He is my backup at home. I love my father very much and I really can't wait for this 2 days to get by. I will have my goodnight kisses again, I will have my bedtime stories told, I will have my prawns and crabs peeled for me, I will have my dad say I look beautiful even when I look so terrible like always, I will have my blanket put on me even if I forget. I will have my good old days back. :P

I can't wait for those moments again..

I Love Them Very Much.!

Asvita, Nevania, Me, Praveena

I love my best friends very much. I know I can't claim Praveena and Asvita my bestfriends yet as we only know one another for about a week or less.. But they are the kind of people that I can trust and believe in. I know they wont back stab me nor cheat me like how everyone else did. As for Nevania, she's been there with me through all this years and I know she always will be by my side. I love you girls. =)

I Love You Girls Very Much & I mean every word I say :)